onsdag 17 februari 2010

I am cat woman


I am cat woman.
My eyes may be blue and innocent daytime,
but at night they glow in the dark.
I have seen it all.

Watch out.
I am so strong.
A force of Nature,
nocturnal.

Always out there defending the weak and the poor
against injustice everywhere.
Jumping from rooftop to rooftop
dressed in black leather.

Behold!
A dark silhouette against the Moon.
Here I come to save the day...
You'll never know what hit you.

I am cat woman.
Hear me... meow


This is one of the many different characters crowding my brain. Don't mess with her... :)

fredag 12 februari 2010

Valentine's Day



Please don't give me chocolate hearts
All I need is you
Tell me you love me
and I am yours for ever

Listen to my soul.
Dive into my brain.
Look into my heart.
Taste my thoughts.
Feel my melody.
Hear my mind.

Please let me express
all that is in me.

Keep you door open.
Don't slam it in my face.

I believe in love.
Love believes in us.
I believe in you.
Please believe in me.

55 - Going home




On the train
I put my feet up
Lean back into my seat
Gather thoughts from today,
try to organize them a bit
I watch the trees fly by
The snow
The purple sky, so cold
I close my eyes
and I listen to the sounds from the tracks
The rythm
soothing
I'm going home

onsdag 10 februari 2010

Getting personal

I have decided it's time for me to get personal. Well, not that personal really, I won't get undressed or anything, but I would like to show you some things from my home that are important to me. And I want to tell you something about them, too.

So, buckle up, here we go...



This is a sculpture me and M got when we got engaged. That was in 1995. We are still not married. Sometimes this really makes me sad. I love this sculpture though, I love how they seem to find such good comfort in eachother. That is what I want. And some love letters, every now and then. ;)



This is the view from my kitchen. The buildning you see is actually my son's school. Very convenient in the mornings, I tell you... And yes, we do have some snow here in Sweden.



This is a flower arrangement I made the other day. It has kind of a Spring theme. Even though I usually don't complain about winter, this one has been really long and cold. The butterfly is fake, obviously. I could never force a real one pose for me like that... ;)


This is a flower I got for M when he turned 34 the other day. I don't think he appreciated it as much as I would have, though. And I don't think it's because I'm a girl either, he probably just doesn't like flowers all that much. Too bad for him.


This is the Love of my life. It's a She. M got her for me when I turned 30. She is perfect. Isn't she beautiful? Sounds wonderful, too. I wish I had more time to play...



This one's a He. His name is Lennart. I named him after a very cool Latin teacher I once had. Lennart has a secret dream that I would be a better guitar player. I feel kind of sorry for him. But I tell him to keep on dreaming.


This is a book I had to read for school, after I had read it. It doesn't even resemble a book when I'm through with it, now it looks more like a Christmas tree... Sad. I wish I remembered what I read, too.


This is my family. I had these photos developed and wrapped as a birthday gift for M this year. I think he actually liked them. Not the one of himself though, beacause he's kind of shy. Or at least he says he is. I am the photographer. I took the one of myself too... :)


Last but not least, this is where I like to sit when I read or when I listen to music. I have slept here a couple of times too. I've had wine here too, well... let's just say I've done a lot of things here. A good spot.

Well, that's all for now. I hope you enjoyed the ride. Come back soon. I'll make some coffee.

tisdag 9 februari 2010

Three cats I used to live with

Once I lived in a home with three cats. There were people living there too, obviously. This story is not about them however. I might write about them some other time because they all had some very interesting issues. There are a couple of good posts there, just waiting to happen. Some other time.

I never considered myself a cat person, but these cats became my friends. Marcus, Lucas and Theodore. (I lived in a preacher's house at the time, a fact that might explain their Biblical names.) These cats were a bit strange, all three of them. They were all Siamese. That means that when they meow (is that even a word...?) they meow extremely loud. These three were no exception. They all had blue eyes. Beautiful. Lucas eyes were, well, wait for me to google this since I seem to be lacking the vocabulary... Again. ...Lucas suffered from esophoria. According to Wikipedia this is characterized by inward deviation of the eye. Poor Luke. He was so cute but he used to walk into things. He used to scare me half to death too, in the mornings, jumping from the floor, right up on top of innocent old me still asleep in my bed. It was like being punched right in the chest. He was one heavy cat. Kind of fat, really, to tell the truth. But I loved him.

Then there was Marcus. He actually belonged to S, the 13 year old son in the family. I think Marcus was afraid of S though, beacause he didn't go anywhere near him. He seemed to like me enough however, and in the evenings he's curl up in my lap when I sat on the couch with B, the father in the family, when we watched old black-and-white horror movies on TV. That is, Marc would curl up there if Luke wasn't already there... Marcus used to meow rather wildly, even for a Siamese cat, and chase his own tail around the house a lot. It was a big house. And Marcus was really fast. You never knew where he'd turn up...

And then there was Theo. Theo was like one of those really old men that you see sometimes, and you're not really sure if they're still alive or not. Wait a minute, is he still breathing, somebody call for an ambulance...! Yeah, that kind of old man... But a cat... He used to walk in slow motion. Slept almost all the time. Didn't eat much (well, actually I suspect Luke ate his food before he had time to walk up to the bowl...). Theo enjoyed a piece of fruit every now and then, though, he preferred banana as far as I can recall.

One thing that was really sad with these cats was that they had no claws on their front paws. They had all been surgically removed. This was done to save the furniture. I was a Swedish exchange student living in a very strange country for a year, and had never heard of such a thing before. I always felt so sorry for Marc, Luke and Theo beacuse of this. They were never allowed to go outside. They never saw the sun, felt the rain, chased mice - how could they have? They never felt the grass under their paws... Poor things. They were indoor cats. I mean, how cruel is that? I'd say it's horrible. Anyway, had they been allowed to go outside they wouldn't have been able to do normal cat stuff. They couldn't have climbed trees. They couldn't have defended themselves against other cats. They would've been so out of their elements. So I felt really sorry for them. When me and S got home from school they'd sit there and beg with their blue eyes for us to let them go outside. But no.

I am still not a cat person. I'd really like to have a dog one day though. A big one. But my family has troubles with allergies so there won't be a dog in this home, unfortunately. Unless somebody comes up with a cure for being allergic to fur... I will always remember what it was like to live in a home with three cats, and I know I'll never forget their interesting personalities. These cats are all in cat heaven now, and I hope they are climbing trees like crazy up there.

måndag 8 februari 2010

My beautiful E


My baby
She is way too beautiful
Stunning
Drop dead gorgeous
Last night she danced for me

Oh, somebody please tell me why did I let her take those dance classes?
What was I thinking?
Beyoncé, watch out. She's gonna get you. If she feels like it. She will.
Seems not long ago, she was my little girl. My funny little girl. So smart. Pony tails. So full of giggles.
Now, who is that teenager dancing around in my kitchen?
Where did she come from?
She terrifies me.
I will lose her.
I have lost parts of her already.
She has a lot of friends. Everyone loves her. Kids love her. Old people love her. Teachers love her. I fear boys might love her too. Oh, E, why not become a nun? Doesn't that sound like fun? But I can see where this is going. There will be boyfriends. Boyfriends with mopeds. Boyfriends with cars. And you'll be dancing somewhere else.
Oh, please, E, be my little girl. For a few more years at least. Listen to your Mom. Talk to me. I love you so much. I know a lot of things. Don't slam your door. Let me in so we can talk about it.
I'll always remember your dance in the kitchen last night. Seeing how grown up you are I realize how we need to cherish each and every moment we spend together. You grow up so fast. I am so proud to be your Mom.
I love you.

måndag 1 februari 2010

Exploring frozen beauty


Let me tell you about a passion of mine. I am on a constant quest searching for beauty. My camera is usually my only companion as I take long walks exploring my world. I have really been enjoying this winter. This winter is by far the wintriest winter I can remember ever. I don't even recall winters being this wintery back when I was a little girl with braids out in the countryside outside Hova. These days I hear a lot of people around me complain about the snow, the cold, the ice in the streets, their heating bills, their cold feet, how they just hurt their back shoveling. Please. It's weather, people. It's not like you can make it change by whining about it. Wear something warm. Hug a friend. Tie a scarf around your face. If you´re cold, make love. Or something. I love winter. Actually, I'm a great big fan of seasons. I love the extremes.

The other day, me, Winter, my camera, my daughter E and my son L, went for a walk on the frozen lake of Vänern. It was surreal. -20 degrees Celsius. So cold. So crisp. Sun setting. My kids actually getting along. For a short while. And the light. It was magical. Here I have posted some of the photos I took. Enjoy.


E and L... I love you.


Frozen and beautiful.


Footprints in the snow.


Sun setting. Dark snow.


White snow.


Frozen playground.


Winter. I feel strong. Exploring frozen beauty.